Day 2 Attack of the Negatives

Day 2 of my journey. Someone once told me that if you start a new path or journey and immediately get attacked by the negative, that you are probably on exactly the right path. I woke up this morning and was immediately hit with sharp pain. Arthritis, sinus, and my husband suddenly having nerve inflamation at the site of his back surgery, which meant I missed a day of work and by work standards lost a vacation day. I could spend hours and days complaining about this morning, but I glanced at my bedside table and saw my lists. My gratitude list and my Goal list. I knew I would spend part of the day dealing with doctors and medical tests for my husband, so I grabbed my planning notebook, my ipod and pencils and worked on a few pages of my books. Affluenza, Barrier to living the True Abundant Life is moving along; Whole Year GrandPlan is a bit slower as I get stuck on summer months; and my unnamed book about my personal dream, helping develop urban homesteads as a "cool" way of life for the future is starting to get an outline developed. The more I research, the more I become convinced that these books need to start as ebooks and possibly never go to full printing. How can I write about decreasing my impact on the environment and then kill 20 trees to print it out for sales!

When we got home, I put the energy to work on our front and side yards. Because of our schedules and illnesses the yard had become little more than a trash heap. My husband did what he could by sorting things that had gathered in the space. I lifted and pushed, raked and shoveled. After four hours of working, I could see the vision of parties on the patio much more clearly. I can hardly wait to get home from work tomorrow to finish planting the garden pots. The flow of the day reminded me that I must put my energies towards this as at work I am a hexagon in a round hole. I fit, but it sure isn't where I am supposed to be!